Knowing My October-->

October is always like my reflection point for the year it feels like. There’s something about watching the the weather cool and knowing that the holidays are coming that makes this time of the year feel unique. Leaves are whisping about the Autum wind and a steaming cup of tea feels that much more welcome against the crispness of the air. It like the coming days are borrowing the last bit of heat from the waivering summer. It gives me a burst of energy and a knowing that I can’t describe but in the words that I will present.

For this October I want a new beginning for myself. I feel the attraction of things in my life that bring me peace, resolution and wealth of the soul’s capital. There’s a tension in the spirit that lets me know I’m at the verge of something greater than myself and informs me that I must stay wise to the signs of life. I’ve let go of the heavy part of my life and let a higher power carry me through these days. I’ve given in to the fact I don’t know where the path leads and that I don’t need to know to see the brightness of each sure step in front of me. I feel almost free of that which bound me to deception and the collusion of others, intentional or not, to dim my light which have only created more source of such light within me.

I don’t fear for the future but know that it holds me dear in the nook of success and the challenges I must face to get where I am heading are only stories for my children and character building measures that make me more vibrant. Tomorrow holds the secret about what was special about the things I faced today and knowing like I know is knowing what the future holds for me.

I sacrificed the world back what I held so dear and somewhere inside it nearly killed me to feel the way I did. But the world will connect me back with what I gave it if it is what is healthy for me and well deserved. I am not above what god demands of me and of what is demanded by my soul for sacrafice. I am not a man of regrets because that which is less desired still serves your soul but maybe I could have done different in this case. Maybe I should have dreamed higher or reached above myself to gain those traits of the spirit which would have balanced me and made me less demanding. But as sure as I am that the sun will rise tomorrow is as sure as I am that knowing what I know now must be needed medication for a weary soul that would have not known otherwise.

When you give in to that thing unseen that gives you a tug on your shoulder and a whisper in your ear or see that fact which is in the midst of illusion enlightenment will be your guide and you can do no harm. I have been given peace by knowing the truth and through the truth I stand whole. If you lead me to the truth may your path be blessed as well. That which you give in good heart you will surely receive.