Will Bridges

Sometimes people get lost in the world they create for themselves. Their environment becomes stagnant and the air becomes weak around them. What I mean is people get stale and sick of their own existance wihtout even knowing it's hit them. I believe the body will reject this by creating depression, anxiety and making a person go through all shades of difficulty and stress. I really feel that these things like anxiety and depression are ways that the body reflects it's distaste for our current situation and a way of letting us know we are living unhealthy. I actually have battled with anxiety disorder for some time. My father has anxiety and my mother has depression. So, I find myself creating all kinds of mental stress and situations for myself. But, without pills, (which I believe control the syptom and don't cure the problem) I have managed to overcome these things by listening to my body and my mind.

I change things up when I undergo these types of symptoms. I look at my life and how I could make it better, reduce stress and create peace. So, I tend to look inward instead of outward for a solution to these problems. A lot of people are happy on the drugs that they give you for depression or anxiety but I just don't want to become addicted at such an early age and I have a hard time believing that so many people are afflicted by what is considered a disease. I think the diseases are complaicancy, boredom, various addictions and stress. The result is a body and mind that cry out for attention in the form of anxiety and depression. The normal response is "Doctor, give me something for this…" when I believe it should be "What am I doing that creates this feeling for me?". The second question can have difficult answers and the first question, the one that most people ask, has a much more simple answer. Since I walked this path and chose question number two I can tell you it is a longer and more difficult path but a much more rewarding path. You can learn a lot about yourself traveling that path. My anxiety attacks were pretty bad. I went to the hospital a couple times and they hooked me up to machines to attempt to figure out what was wrong with me. They eventually chalked it up to anxiety disorder after running all the tests they could think of. I took a long, hard look at myself and had to quit smoking, start working out and change my outlook on life to a more positive one. Not only that but I had to make drastic lifestyle changes… I had to switch it up.

I realized my job was very stressful, my health was getting worse and general stress about things that weren't important were weakening my spirit. It took me about 2 months before I was able to get a plan in place to quit my job at the time, put a work out plan in action, eat a bit better and treat myself like I cared about and loved me. I was satisfied because I know many people just continue on that path, they don't change anything and they end up sad people who are productive members of society but lose their soul and forget what makes them unique. 

Change is beautiful. The universe is full of change. It is the only constant. It's a dynamic symphony of instruments that we are all a part of. But, in it's time an instrument will have many notes and play many songs and without those different notes and songs it would not be an instrument at all but just background noise. Live life full.

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Yesterday I was working off of 3 hours of sleep after spending about 23 hours awake the day before helping a client in London get a website up and functioning. My friend Chris helped and then went to work at his full time job. Wow, how can you stay awake 48 hours! I definitely couldn’t work and be worth anything during most of that time. But, I guess everybody is different. I’m not very efficient if I only get 5 hours of sleep. Some people live off of 5 hours of sleep. I’ve read people who get a proper amount of sleep don’t age as quickly and tend to live longer. Personally, most times, I would rather get 7-8 hours of sleep and be late on a project but I’m pretty customer service oriented when it comes to work so I argue with myself to make sure things get done all the time. What’s really bad is I had a face-to-face business meeting on 3 hours of sleep yesterday. But, I preformed real well and I’m pretty sure I got the contract from that meeting. A good business meeting will give you a boost of adreniline when you have a family to feed, Christmas is coming up, and you are trying to save to move to Uruguay.

Anyways, I think the lesson is we all need more sleep. Nobody is as good as they would be if they got the proper amount of sleep. You are doing yourself a disservice and those who count on you a disservice by not getting the proper amount. However, in rare situations, sometimes you have to suck it up and do it. Just make sure you schedule the proper rest afterwards to make up for the tax you just imposed on your body and mind.

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Happy December! I wanted to discuss an issue that really disturbs me. I was just talking to a client about how the situation of health care is ridiculous. To me it seems the primary concern of the government should be the health of it’s citizens and enabling those citizens to be able to take care of themselves. I think we have never had that in this country. Health care professionals seem to cure symptoms any more, they don’t cure diseases because there is no money in a cure. Doctors want to help you live with an ailment more than they want to cure it so you can live long enough to put more money in the coffers. I’m not so sure it’s the intension of the doctors as it is the intention of Big Medicine (pharmaceutical companies, health care conglomerates, medical equipment manufacturers, etc…). It may not be the intention of the average doctor however I believe they should take responsibility and stand up against the corporations.

I have been told by reputable sources that pharmaceutical companies try and court doctors with trips and gifts to get those doctors to offer their medication to people. It’s lobbying for doctors and it’s not about actually treating the illness of the person but about money. Pharmaceutical companies are legal crack dealers any more and in our country as long as they pay off the local police (The Food & Drug Administration) then they can serve thier wares to an unsuspecting public. If a small company comes up with a cure to a disease they are discredited, bought out, and/or unable to come up with the money for FDA approval. So, people don’t take their solution seriously or don’t know about it at all and tons more people have to live with the medications that treat the symptoms and the medications that treat the side effects of the medications that treat the original illness. Did you follow that? What a great and free country we live in.

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As I wrote before I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder a while back. Well, I’m donating some of my programming & project management time to a project that deals with that. I don’t want to discuss it much until the final plan is laid down and the programming starts. But, I’ve been helping to write a plan for a website called unburdenus.com which will help gather statistical data about treatments and side effects for common psychological ailments such as anxiety and depression. It will be a tool to put unbiased data in the hands of health care professionals and other sufferers of these illnesses so such ailments can be treated better. It looks like a promising tool and I proud to be a member of a team of about 5 programmers and designers who are working on this concept. The other good news is it’s Ruby on Rails so it will be Web 2.0 and I will be the technical lead on the project.

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I have been sick with the cold since day before yesterday. But, I feel much better now. My sinuses were clogged up and it was just terrible. I hate colds and I really don’t like taking medicines. So, at least it was short and it will be over in time for my party tomorrow.

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I’ve been working out just about every day for the past week and I feel much better. I have had anxiety attacks in the past. The doctors wanted to put me on medication but I don’t believe in that. I think if I’m having anxiety attacks it’s my body trying to tell me something. My body is trying to tell me it’s under too much stress and it doesn’t like the way I’m living. So, I go to the gym and work out, drink a lot more water, meditate some more, and generally just live more healthy. This seems to correct the problem. I believe putting drugs in my body would just cover up the problem and enable me to live the same unhealthy lifestyle as I was before. So, just say ‘no’ to drugs, even the legal ones the doctor tries to shove down your throat for some imagined disease when it’s really your body trying to send you a message. Not all prescription drugs are bad, you just need to question and research drugs before your doctor puts you on them. There’s lots of information out there. RemedyFind is a great place to find experiences with pharmicuticals and alternative therapies from real people.

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